Happy Spring! Happy Ostara and Happy Spring Equinox!
This is one of my favorite times of year! 🌸🌼🌺. I LOVE seeing all of the green that’s coming back all around us. Feeling the earth awaken after winter, the longer days and shorter nights, more of nature coming to life – I feel so INSPIRED this time of year.
A time of rebirth and renewal, this is also a great time for new ideas! What is something that you’ve been wanting to do but haven’t felt like it during the gray winter? How are you planning on taking advantage of the sunshine and warmer weather?
I’ll be going on a lot more hikes and walks. In northeastern Pennsylvania, it gets cold and icy during the winter months and isn’t the safest for my favorite trail (which has a lot of tree roots). I’ll be going through my big piles of books to read, finding a good park or a good spot in the backyard, and set up camp for the day (on weekends). I’ll work with the windows open and spend as much time outside as possible.
I feel my best when I’m outside on a nice spring day. But with spring, also comes a lot rain. And some people look at rain as a bad thing or as “bad weather”.
There is a way of thinking that nothing is good or bad – that everything is in a state of neutrality, and we are the ones who decide if it’s “good or bad”. With rain – someone with plans of reading outside on the grass may see rain as “bad”, but someone who has been struggling with a drought may be grateful for the rain. Either way – it’s just rain. With larger concepts, it may be hard to see the neutrality of all things. This is still something I’m working on understanding, but it has helped me tremendously with accepting that life is happening for me, not to me. So if I go through life believing everything is bad, then it will be since that’s my perception. But when I shift my mindset to be grateful for everything – the sunshine AND the rain – my gratitude will grow.
With springtime beginning, I challenge you to spend more time outside. Start a new project, or finish one you’ve put off during winter. Think of at least one thing you’re grateful for every day.
One of my good friends I call Mole-y (nickname originating from high school chemistry learning about moles) writes a list on Facebook every New Year’s Eve of what she’s learned the past year, and I LOVE that. So I wanted to do my own list of lessons, but lessons that I have learned in my 25 years of living.
I’m excited to be 25, in all honesty. I’m not upset about getting older. There was a decent amount of time where I didn’t think I’d make it to 20, so the fact that 1) I’m here and 2) I am officially in my “mid-20s” and old enough to rent a car is incredible. It’s definitely something I’m grateful for and proud of. And to celebrate this milestone, I wrote the following list.
25 Lessons I’ve Learned in my 25 Years
1. Drinking water is not a punishment
2. Never underestimate the power of a good night’s sleep
3. When presented with the opportunity, never skip dessert if you want it.
4. Mental health is JUST. AS. IMPORTANT. as physical health. Never let anyone tell you differently.
5. Other people’s opinions (in the form of advice, suggestions, their everyday conversation, whatever) is not your business. It’s only a reflection of themselves and their perceptions. Listen to what resonates and leave the rest.
6. Books are the best friends you’ll ever have
7. Bandwagons are for suckers. Get to know your true self and hold on tight to what YOU actually like.
8. You will never please everyone, so you may as well just be respectful to everyone while you work to please yourself.
9. Love is real, and it’s important to be your best for your partner, but you need to be the most important person in your life.
10. Life’s too short to not have chocolate, but life’s also too short to not take care of yourself. Everything in moderation.
11. When it comes to someone’s way of life, there is no “wrong”. We are all byproducts of our parents procreation, no one asked to be here and no one has the answers. There is just “different”, but all human beings deserve respect.
12. PLEASE remember that the actual saying is “the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb”, which actually means that you can’t choose who you’re related to but you can choose who you have around you. Those relationships matter the most.
13. Happiness is the most important thing in life. If something or someone does not make you happy, don’t leave the room for it in your life. You only get a handful of years on this earth living this life, so don’t waste them living your life for someone else’s benefit.
14. Pushing yourself past your comfort zone is important, but you need to be kind to yourself in the process.
15. Always choose to travel when you can.
16. Pride should never be in the driver’s seat of life.
17. Keep playing, well into your adult life. Never lose sight of the child in your heart, it’ll make life so much sweeter.
18. We all have things we need to work through and let go of, and there is absolutely no shame in utilizing therapy as a resource
19. Unlearning is just as important as learning.
20. Sometimes you need to give yourself closure.
21. Listen past a person’s anger and most likely you’ll hear fear.
22. No one cares about what you look like as much as you do, so wear what you want. If anyone has anything unpleasant to say about your body, remember that your confidence might be perceived by them as a threat… and that you look amazing.
23. Quality over quantity with everything. Seriously, with everything.
24. People treat you the way you allow them to. If you’re unhappy with the standards that you set that they’re now adhering to – rework your standards to match your worth.
25. No one human being on this planet is more important or valuable than anyone else. Regardless of race, ethnicity, religious/spiritual beliefs, sexual orientation, gender identity, age, physical ability, neurotypicality/neurodivergence- we are all human beings just trying our best to live out our soul’s mission in this life.
Extra for good luck 🕯: Treat everyone with kindness, including yourself. Learn the Love Languages of people in your life. Treat yourself with the same love and regard you treat your best friend. Befriend at least one spiritual person. Read The Four Agreements. Move your body in a way that also brings you happiness. Cultivate a morning routine so you give yourself time before you give your energy to anyone else. Nourish your body with good food. Healthy mind, healthy body; and vice versa. Spend as much time outside as possible. And most of all- Choose happy ✌🏻😁
Hello, all! Happy 2021! I feel like the end of 2020 has been a long time coming and yet also kinda feels like a weird prank. In any case, I hope you had a safe and fun New Years and overall holiday season!
In the spirit of new beginnings, I thought I’d use this blog post to reintroduce myself. There are actually some new people who are following my blog and social media accounts. Which is super cool…and also super weird. Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad and grateful. I want you guys here and I want to reach more people, but it’s been kind of humbling/Imposter-Syndrome-inducing/another feeling I can’t quite place.
So I started my first blog (the one I had before this one) because of The Perfect Man. Think back to 2005 when Hilary Duff was in all the movies, sang all the music, and did all the things (or at least that’s how it felt for me). In the movie, she sets her mom up on an elaborate blind date and also has a blog. I immediately fell in love with the whole ~writing a blog from my laptop on a fire escape~ vibe, and knew that at some point, I’d want to write one too.
In 3rd grade, around the same time this movie came out, I won a Young Authors competition. Went to a big conference hall, won an award. Needless to say, I have loved writing and reading since I learned to read and write. I am a writer by nature. I say affirmations and a decent amount of them surround my writing career.
I started That Writer Jenna last year as a “rebranding” of myself. This time, owning the fact that me, Jenna, is writing this blog. That Writer Jenna (TWJ) will eventually evolve to be a part of big things I accomplish in my life. I keep up with this blog and I have a little corner of the internet for my writing because I want my words to reach people. I want to help heal people with my words.
And I realize that sounds like a big deal. But I mean it to be. I have big dreams for my career. Some of which I haven’t even admitted to myself yet. And part of that is my drive to help people feel better.
Within the past few months, some of the people that have been reading my posts are people that I know. Which is so cool. But also a little shocking and outside my comfort zone.
I tend to imagine myself writing into the abyss of the Internet. I write these posts and a few people read them and maybe someone comments, but all interaction is with people I don’t know. So I am writing into the abyss and strangers are reading it. But now the abyss is meeting my real life and it’s….weird. It’s weird because it’s REAL. This isn’t just something that I do in secret that no one knows about, so it’s not the same as before where it felt like it didn’t matter if what I was writing was good. It’s kind of like a wake up call, ya know? If I’m going to actually carpe meae (seize my life), then I need to do the work. I can’t keep being timid. And this “weird” is the best feeling – because it means that as my space grows, my work is making an impact. Already I have had people I know in real life tell me what I’ve written about has helped them, which is absolutely incredible.
(But fair warning that I will probably still blush and get awkward talking about this in person🤷🏻♀️)
In any case, my space over here in the abyss is an open space to talk all things relating to mental health, spirituality, philosophy, personal development, general wellness, and whatever other topics I think are interesting. I speak about things from my experience, and I hold space for ALL experiences.
I’m an ally of the LGBTQIA+ community (aka alphabet mafia for my fellow TikTok fanatics) and the BLM movement. I’m an ally of any and all religions, bodies, abilities, neurodivergencies, gender identities, sexual orientations, etc. I am a feminist and think boys shouldn’t be taught to not cry. I support the Second Amendment. And honestly, it doesn’t even matter. Quite frankly, my dear, I don’t give a damn about any of that. Let’s get past all of the superficial shit and the divisiveness and just speak soul to soul, okay? That’s more my jam.
I welcome discussion. Just because you’re reading something online doesn’t mean it’s true and that you have to agree. Because you don’t. But just like I have the right and freedom to have my little corner of the internet over here, you also have the same right and freedom to tell me you don’t like what I say. Or that you love what I say (what I’d prefer, in all honesty). Or you don’t have to interact at all. Just like I don’t have to answer a comment that is rooted in ignorance or rage. All too often, I see people say “I don’t tolerate hate on my page”, and I’m not saying I tolerate or welcome hate, but also who am I to tell you what you can and can’t say just because you’re here in my section of the internet?
So what does all of this have to do with TWJ?
I have meditated on, and thought about, how I wanted to handle my corner of the interwebs this year. I’ve come to the conclusion that I’ll keep my same schedule that I’ve been following the past few months. Two blog posts a month (on the 5th and the 20th), and social media posts on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. My goal is to build a company and work for myself under TWJ, but I have to start somewhere. This feels like a good fit for now. I work a full-time job and have other obligations. I can’t schedule inspiration and I don’t want this to feel obligatory or overwhelming at all, but I also need to have a little discipline. I need to build a solid foundation, and this feels pretty solid to me for right now.
That’s my plan for That Writer Jenna in 2021. Build a foundation, create a routine that is consistent and of good-quality, and see what the universe/the future has in store.
I hope all of you had an amazing holiday season and I’m wishing you a safe, happy, healthy, fun, amazing new year! 🍾
Happy Friday!! I hope you are doing well today. I hope you feel happy and at peace and grateful. If not, hopefully by the end of reading this you’ll feel better!
I’ve written about this before, I’m not sure if it was on this blog or my previous one. But I used to not like Thanksgiving.
“How could you not like Thanksgiving?!?” I heard that constantly. You want to know why?
Because growing up, I spent the holiday with my mom’s side of the family. We have a bit of an estranged relationship, there’s some toxicity there. So the holiday was always full of stress. I also don’t like the traditional Thanksgiving food – stuffing, cranberry sauce, (dry) turkey.
Last year, I worked on Thanksgiving. I chose to work to earn PTO, and I decorated my room for Christmas before signing on. I also wrote a poem about my feelings about the day, and I let myself take it easy.
This year – I am mostly focused on the gratitude part. I’m writing this a few weeks in advance, and as of right this moment I don’t know what my plans are since I’m unable to work that day. But I am looking forward to a chilly day where the only thing to do is eat and think about things I’m grateful for.
So let’s get a head start! What am I grateful for this year?
Hello! We have 11 days until Halloween! I know I’m super early, but I’m excited 😁
Normally I don’t really care about Halloween. I’m all for the candy, and Halloween parties are fun because (pre-COVID) it served as a way to get drunk in a costume that for me was some sort of comfortable. But I’ve been very excited for this Halloween in particular.
If you’ve read any of my other posts, then you’re familiar with me being spiritual. Part of my spiritual journey has led me on the path of learning more about Paganism, witchcraft, and spirituality philosophies.
On the Pagan Wheel of the Year, Samhain is the Pagan tradition that is their “Halloween”, but really I think is more like Day of the Dead. Samhain is a celebration of the harvest and is meant to be a celebration of the harvest with all loved ones, living and those that have passed.
Also, in addition to the reflective time of Samhain, this Halloween in particular is a powerful time energetically speaking. On Saturday, October 31st, Daylight Savings Time ends, so we “fall back” the clocks and gain an hour. Also, there is a Full Moon on Halloween and it’s a blue moon. Blue moons happen when there are two full moons in one month. Having a blue moon on Halloween is exciting because it doesn’t happen often. The last time this occurred was 1944, and won’t happen again until 2039!
I don’t have much information to share more on Samhain specifically, or on the moon energies. Frankly, there are a lot of other articles online written by people more knowledgeable on both of those subjects.
“So why write this then?”
Because I’m excited. I’m excited for the cooler weather. I forget how much I truly love sweaters and autumn until it’s 50° and I’m bundling up in cardigans. I’m excited because this is the first autumn I’m engaged. I’m excited because I’m feeling inspired about my life! That’s amazing y’all, because for awhile there I was feeling pretty lost. I know that Halloween is over a week away, and as of this point I don’t even know if I have plans yet (socially distance, COVID safe plans), but I’m excited.
I hope you all can find something to be excited about this month! 🎃
Happy Tuesday! Happy New Moon in Leo! This is also the second full day into Uranus Retrograde, so let me know if this is hitting y’all as hard as it’s hitting me 😅
In case you’re not into astrology stuff (moon energy, planetary alignments, etc.), I’ll briefly discuss what both of these things mean and link articles to read that explain it more eloquently. Also, just follow @truly.intuitive on Instagram! She’s the best.
New Moons are the beginning of the moon’s energy cycle. It’s typically when witches do their work for manifestation, among other things. New Moons signify beginnings, and there have also been studies to show that a majority of women menstruate around the new moon and ovulate around the full moon. So, new moons are pretty powerful. If you do any sort of Law of Attraction practice (writing letters, vision boards, etc.), I recommend paying attention to when the next New Moon is to help boost the manifesting.
Most of us are aware of our sun signs. This is the answer we would give if anybody were to actually use the “So what’s your sign?” pick-up line on us. This is the “most popular” knowledge people have of their birth chart, but y’all there is actually so much more to know. It’s on my mental list of things to do to study astrology and eventually be able to read birth charts, but for now I’m still in the “collecting general knowledge” phase. We all have the planet Uranus in our chart, and typically, this planet is a symbol of progress, science, and disruption of the status quo. It’s the planet that is linked to surprises, innovation, revolution, and liberation. Uranus is demonstrative of all that is unique, wild, unpredictable, and unusual in our lives.
So what does this mean for this planet going in retrograde? It means our comfort zone will be tested. We are given a choice: change or die. (Die in the figurative sense). Without the influence of Uranus, many of us would nestle deep in our most familiar ruts and never look back. Uranus pushes us past the edge of our comfort.
Y’all, I am feeling all of this energy.
Recently (like, Sunday night recently), I initiated a difficult conversation that I’ve been avoiding having with someone. And while we actually made progress, kinda, I was in my feels yesterday (as the kids say). I was feeling down, almost depressed. Very sad, insecure.
(Context: This wasn’t a bad conversation! No break-ups or any life changes, just a sensitive topic that is something not openly discussed. A lot of emotions were had).
And the reason I think that all of these feelings have to do with my spiritual awakening, is because I know that I need to go through this. So after yesterday morning of feeling super low, I was sitting outside cuddling with our pupper and had the thought that growth comes after change, and this season is all about shaking things up and teaches us what is really important.
It’s hard to determine if what I’m feeling is a “normal” part of growing, spiritually. It’s hard to tell if I cried for an hour that night because I was depressed af or if I’m understanding that everything in this world is grey – there is no black or white answer. I am right in my mind and you are right in your mind, so how can we say either of us is wrong? If my upset was because of the realization that I need to learn how prioritize my own needs while simultaneously prioritizing the needs of others. That’s a difficult balance, but it’s so important to have. If my upset was just overwhelm. Or if it was something else entirely, or a combination of all of the above.
And don’t get me wrong, crying is necessary. And I’m not ashamed of the fact that I cry easily. I have grown a lot and am proud of being able to feel my feelings. Holding space for my emotions is hard, honestly. It’s easier to numb or ignore, but at the end of the day, it is so beneficial to feel them and release them so you have more room for happiness.
However, I am ashamed of the fact that I feel shame surrounding my interests and the things that mean a lot to me. A good friend started following me on Instagram (@thatwriterjenna) and dude, I almost dry-heaved. My stomach dropped to my knees and I was about to stop doing this. And she’s a great friend, so it’s not like I don’t want her to see anything. I post this and am working on baring my soul to the interwebs because I want my words to be seen. But the more people in my life who comes across my writing, the more real it becomes. “It” being stepping up to the plate and actually pursuing my dream of being a writer. So yeah, I’m not ashamed that I love to write. I’m not ashamed of my spirituality. I know that writing and spirituality is not for everyone, and that while these things are a part of me, they do not define me. But I feel shame around the guilt I feel for being so…me. And if I’m honest, I guess part of me is a little (or a lot) ashamed of who/what “me” is.
Y’all how the fuck am I supposed to live my damn life and choose happiness if I’m ashamed of myself? How am I supposed to become the person I am in my dreams, my dream version of me, by playing small?
I’ve read in so many memoirs that once they fully stepped into themselves, they felt so much better and accomplished so much more than they ever thought possible. That’s a bit daunting to me, because I’m manifesting a pretty successful writing career. And like, I want that. But all of this work before hand – the unlearning and the healing and the shadow work and all that, is daunting. And it’d be easier to not deal with it.
But I’m already here! I’m already shedding the layers of the past versions of me. I feel like these layers are like a onesie pajama set and I’m standing here with the pajamas to my hips. I can’t just live life halfway out, and I can’t put myself back in. So, the only way out is through.
I need to push through the discomfort and grow into myself anyway. Do the thing even if I’m scared…if not because I’m scared. I am living this life once, so I need to stop waiting for xyz and just jump into the deep end.
So how does the New Moon and Uranus Retrograde and hard talks and embracing being myself all tie together? Because it’s my life! It’s exactly what I’m going through right now. And being open about what’s going on as it’s going on, before I have any hindsight, is on the edge of my comfort zone. That’s what Uranus Retrograde is all about. And I’ve had this feeling that’s been persistent for a few days now: that with the platform I’ll eventually build, I am meant to open the door for other people to have difficult conversations. Authenticity is one of the most important things to me, and I think part of my purpose is to show people how to find their truth.
But I have a lot of living and learning to do before I can get there. I can’t pour from an empty cup, and the teeny tiny drop I sometimes have in my cup I gotta save for myself. And all of these realizations are a part of the process.
We are living through a pandemic. This isn’t exactly the part of the “Roaring 20’s” we wanted, but it’s the part that we got. Some days are going to feel great, and some days will not. It’s not about comparison of pain or comparison of success, of what Jane Doe is doing today and how Joe Shmo can get all that work done. Your best today will look different than your best tomorrow, and that’s okay.
Take some extra time to take care of yourself, there’s a lot going on energetically right now. I wish you peace and happiness. ✨
Hi all. There are a few things that are on my mind that I want to talk about and share, but I wanted to let y’all know something first. I am not posting more about the protests, the rebellions, or anything about George Floyd, Breonna Taylor, or any other of the souls we lost to racism out of respect.
I stand with my black friends and family. I am an ally of POC. And out of respect, I’m not going to try to get my site trending by using the hashtags that aren’t mine to use. (Yes I used hashtag George Floyd on the My Heart Feels Heavy poem, and honestly that was in poor taste. I’m removing that tag once I publish this post). And you’ll notice that I’m not using any tags on this post either.
Let’s be honest – it does not matter what I have to say. I already treat everyone equally. No one is better than me and no one is lesser than me. I understand that all of our souls are connected and we are one. I have friends from all different backgrounds. I treat everyone with respect, and I do not judge people based on superficial things. It is not my place to clog up the important tags. And I will raise my children, should I be blessed enough to have them when I’m ready, to do the same. I have been saying silent because I don’t want my words to get in the way of someone finding something written by POC.
The events that are transpiring right now are not a #trend. This is not the time for me to get more traffic to my page. My site does not need to be seen right now. However, if a reader (that’s you!) wants to know why they haven’t seen anything from me about this other than my poem, and they’re looking through my stuff, this is why.
I see you, POC. I stand with you. I am sorry we are fighting against the same societal injustices as our grandparents were, but this time, these issues end NOW. ✊🏼✊🏽✊🏾✊🏿
It’s no secret that we’ve all, collectively, have been going through something within this pandemic. We have all been affected by this time. Curfews, grocery restrictions, changed plans, stay-at-home orders, to say the least. Everyone has been grieving the loss of their normal routines in different ways. Some people are acting as Facebook News Reporter, sharing every article and “researching” every statistic. There are other people who are cleaning everything all day. Others are binge watching TV. Others are just ignoring all the rules and still having friends over. Others are complaining about not being able to go to concerts, watch sports, go out to eat dinner, etc.
Can we all agree on one thing, perhaps? That the way things were before all this started, was not working? That the way we handled our lives – was not working for us?
“I don’t know why you’d say that! I think things were just fine before”.
Really? Then why can’t you sit still? Why are you so uncomfortable with silence? What are you ignoring that you should face? What trauma have you been pushing down that you need the distraction from? Why are you so damn eager to go back to the rat race and the hustle-and-bustle and the diversions from you having a relationship with your mind?
So many of us never process our feelings. We push down our wants, our dreams, our desires, and follow a path that doesn’t feel right. We follow something that’s expected, or that doesn’t match our ideals anymore. We choose divorce over working on something that isn’t even broken. We push our kids into any and all activities to get them away from us and out of the house. We ignore our neighbors. We disregard our friends and family. We choose drugs, alcohol, gambling, sex, food, video games, absolutely anything possible to numb our feelings because it’s easier to ignore it than to face it. We go through our days on autopilot and our nights numbed or altered. Now that we finally have the free time to just relax, we can’t handle it.
What are you running from?
(I’ve said this before and I’ll say it as many times as I need to. I don’t have my psychology degree (yet!). I’m not a psychologist, therapist, shaman, guru of any kind… but I research as much as I possibly can and I love to learn. And just because I may not have any accreditation does not mean I can’t still be right.)
“So what do you do? Just stare at the wall all day? I need to be DOING something”
No, I don’t stare at the wall all day, silly. I write. I journal my thoughts. I do yoga and meditate and move my body. I read. I also work from home. I pray. I research places to visit, things to do, recipes to try, etc.
But, I get that. I used to not be able to sit still for a full minute. (I’m serious, my boyfriend made me try. Multiples times, and I would fidget after 15 seconds). Because my anxiety, my learned trauma, made me feel as though if I wasn’t productive, if I wasn’t actively doing something at all times, something terrible would happen. I would be wasting time. I’d be wasting the whole day if I didn’t get every single thing done. And that’s how most of us live. Constantly on the go, “the rat race”. Chasing productivity with a blind eye to everything else. And now, things are still. We are still. We have food, shelter, technology, etc, but we’re worried about football? We’re worried about not having new seasons of TV shows?
I gotta say it. That’s bullshit. These are clearly first world problems, but we cannot think outside of ourselves to see the big picture.
Well, I can help with the big picture.
Think of Every. Single. Thing. you could possibly be grateful for. And if you think you have nothing to be grateful for, try to imagine yourself from 10 years ago. What do you have in your life now that you used to dream about? Imagine yourself at 10 years old. What lessons have you learned since then?
I have my list below. It’s not everything (that would be way too long and boring for y’all. You’re welcome), but it at least should help a little bit with gaining some perspective.
This took me not even 10 minutes. And I feel happier thinking of all the good things I have around me. Like breeds like. If you focus on the negative, negativity will surround you. If you force yourself to think of the positives, you’ll be open to seeing more good things. (This thought process is Law of Attraction 101 that has been said many times in The Secret, The Four Agreements, and most religions).
I know this feels hard right now. But if all you are asked to do is stay home, then this isn’t difficult, this isinconvenient.
Of course, those of us with depression, anxiety, or any other mental health afflictions may be feeling this harder. And to these people, I say that you are not alone. Not only is the entire world going through the same situation, but I understand the struggle. I have had anxiety for my whole life and depression for most; I understand the sneaky, sly ways they warp your brain. Which is why it’s especially important for us to surround ourselves with positivity. To take away the strength of our mental demons and build of walls of good in our minds.
Emotions, any/all of them, are meant to be felt. So if you’re feeling depressed, then sit with that. If you’re feeling anything, sit with that feeling. Talk through it (even if to yourself, I’m talking out loud to myself all the time). Write about it. But remember that all emotions pass. Don’t hold onto the negative ones, let them pass.
So I’m going to assume that you’re in a better head space now. You’re feeling grateful, you’re feeling grounded and less stressed. What’s next?
Being a sports fan or a reality TV show fan or an anime fan or a fan of any show (or anything, really) is nothing to be faulted for. You should have interests and you’re allowed to be passionate about things that make you happy. We all should have hobbies and things that bring us joy. But, in all reality, we can live without most of the things we have in our life. We CAN live without sports. We CAN live without TV. We CAN live without Netflix, festivals, etc. Granted, it may not be as fun or as enjoyable of an experience, but life can still be done without the extras. And realizing just how little we need to live is important.
“Well if I’m not watching baseball during baseball season, then I’m not living.”
Yes you are. You are breathing, and your heart is beating. You are living.
I think an issue society faces is all we see is what is shown to us, rather than thinking for ourselves. And we tend to fall into routines and habits, which is a natural thing to do. But we usually forget to make time for being outside. For mindfully eating. For calling our parents or our kids. We forget to be intentional. Why do we do what we do? What is it even that we do? How does that make us feel?
Maybe self awareness isn’t something you’re interested in, and that’s fine. I support whatever makes you happy. (I mean if you don’t even know yourself then you can’t really be happy…)
“So you said that the way things were before wasn’t working. How do you think they should be, then?“
I think we should prioritize happiness. And love. I think that we should stop complaining about bullshit, petty crap and be grateful for another day. Be grateful you have xyz to complain about.
I’m not going to get into much about politics, but I do think we need to start prioritizing the human beings and living things on this planet. I don’t think money should be more important than health. I don’t think greed should be more prevalent than nature. I think we need to take a step back and realize that we won’t be able to argue about politics if we don’t even have a sustainable environment to live in because we took everything we could from Mother Earth.
Everyone is struggling right now. And everyone is allowed to feel sad during this time. 99% of the world’s population has never lived through, or even seen, a pandemic. It’s scary. But instead of getting angry about not being able to watch sports, check your priorities and remember why you like them. Think about the traditions, the fun, etc., and find a way to incorporate that into your life now. Play catch with your kids, watch old games on YouTube, etc.
To sum up, I kind of can’t stand what this time has brought out in people. It’s replaced common sense with stupidity, it’s replaced logic with fear, and it’s scary to see how many people cannot think for themselves. How their only thoughts are what they’ve read online, and how asinine of an idea it is to challenge what they’ve read instead of just accepting that as truth.
So accept this as your truth: I am reading this on something that is internet-enabled. I am able to access the internet. I am grateful for all the internet can show me – all the good, all the lessons, all the history and miracles and wonders of the world. I am grateful to have electricity, to be breathing, and to have <fill in the blank here>.
Challenge yourself to go past the walls you’ve built to keep everyone else out. Read books. Go for a walk. Sit out on your front step. Meditate. Write in a journal. Have some damn perspective. This is not going to last forever, and the way you handle this is going to be how you handle every obstacle you’ll face from this point out. So do you want to be negative, be scared, and complain? Or do you want to learn why you think the way you do and how you want to start thinking? Do you want to accept life as it is, or pursue more? Do you want to push yourself to the best of your ability, push yourself to reach your highest potential? Do you want to stop running from yourself and finally find some peace?
I want to thank all of the healthcare workers (EMTs, Paramedics, Nurses, Doctors, Techs, CNAs, LPNs, Transporters, etc). I want to thank the teachers. I want to thank the delivery drivers and grocery store workers and those in the food industry. I want to thank the artists and musicians and small businesses for doing things a bit differently. I want to thank all the essential workers and those of us switching things up ans do I want to let the parents know who are now home school teachers that y’all are killing it. I want to acknowledge all the sense of community we’ve been extending to one another. May we find peace during the chaos. May we find love in ourselves, and may we treat our minds as well as we treat our possessions. Wishing you all peace, love, strength, and perspective during this time.
Something that has been weighing heavy on my heart is something I think maybe other people could benefit from right now.
It’s no secret that we are living through history right now. The COVID19 pandemic has affected every single human alive in one way or another.
There have been many good things about this time: ecosystems in nature gaining strength, polluted areas seeing cleaner air, a sense of community with the entire planet, etc.
There has also been many stories shared online of people with anxiety who are handling this time well, because they live with a sense of panic all the time.
I want to check in and make sure you know that if your anxiety is worse right now, or if it has regressed to stages you thought you were not worried about anymore (🙋♀️), or if you have never had anxiety but you’re developing it now, or anything other than being “okay”…that’s okay. It is truly okay to not be okay.
I’m serious…It’s truly okay to not be okay.
As long as you’re safe, let yourself feel anxious. Let yourself feel whatever physical symptoms are being manifested in your body. Allow yourself to feel scared, nervous, angry, tired, whatever it is. This time is unprecedented for anyone alive right now. Acknowledge the difficulty in right now, and use this time of heightened sensitivity to check in to your needs.
Remember, we are literally all in this together. And I am here for you, sending all the good energy your way 💛
I promised myself I’d keep my typing fingers still when it came to the coronavirus/COVID19 craziness, but I have some thoughts that I haven’t seen shared much that I think are super important in a time like this.
Side note: I am a spiritual person. I study teachings from the major religions and have been studying more of spiritual teachings, witchcraft traditions, etc. I don’t really identify as any one particular school of thought, as I find that the themes of most of these ideologies are the same. Love your neighbor, love yourself, treat others how you want to be treated, etc.
Also, I’ve been working from home for almost a week now. It somehow feels like months and also like a shorter amount of time than a week at the same time. Time has always been something that hasn’t been the easiest on my anxiety, but I have been making an effort to keep myself at peace during this crazy time. Limiting my time on social media, only following uplifting accounts when I do go on, spending more time doing hobbies (reading and playing Animal Crossing: New Horizons, in case you were wondering!), and keeping a routine as best I can.
With that being said, I’ve also been pushing myself to really determine what is important to me. My priorities, my goals, my intentions, my dreams. What do I want my life to look like after this storm passes? And that has been a tad overwhelming, because my perspective has been zoomed out to a global scale (which is not helpful, as I cannot do anything about what the world does. I can only control myself and my actions, but anxiety seeps in to everything. Perspective is key!). However, below I have some lessons that I hope, as a international community, we can take with us when life returns back to normal.
I hope we remember to take care of ourselves. Eating well, drinking water, washing our hands, being mindful of personal space, etc. I hope we remember that our bodies deserve to be taken care of always and not only in a pandemic.
I hope we remember to value those in the medical fields. EMTs, paramedics, doctors, nurses, CNAs, techs, etc. May we remember to respect them, to treat them well, and to compensate them fairly. These are the people with kind, selfless hearts and smart minds who take care of us during emergencies and during illness, and they should be revered as such.
I hope we remember to value our teachers. May we remember that not only do they teach our kid, but they teach probably 25 more kids every day. Middle school and high school teachers educate dozens of students a day. These people are the ones who inspire our children, who teach them, who lead them. May we treat them with respect, may we trust their judgement, and may we compensate them fairly as well.
May we not put so much emphasis on our neighbor’s race, religion, political views; may we care more about their well being.
May we learn more about ourselves – unpack our traumas, learn about things we’ve always wondered about, get back in touch with ourselves and our interests.
May we value our relationships. May we learn about our partner’s needs, their “tells” for when they’re stressed, their interests and priorities and goals. May we continue to fall in love with them every day. (For those in abusive relationships, may this time of isolation be the needed enlightenment to leave a toxic situation).
May we continue to support small and/or local businesses. Spending an extra dollar or two to support the corner store is nothing compared to a family losing their business to competition with chain corporate stores.
May we continue to come together as a community, to check in on the elderly, to support one another through hard times.
May we continue to appreciate nature. May we continue to take care of Mother Earth. The decrease in human activity lately on the planet has done great things for so many ecosystems, may we start to be mindful of the impact we have on our home.
May we remember the strength within us, within our communities. Illnesses are scary, but we have come a very long way as a global society. May we continue to choose peace, love, and light with all things. May we remember to prioritize our mental health. May we continue to not be wasteful with toiletries or food.
Most importantly, may we remember that we have all been through difficult times and have persevered. May we continue to look at the positives, to live with hope in the forefront of our minds, and be grateful for all things big and small.
I am sending every single person who reads this good, healthy, peaceful energy 💛