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mental health

Embrace Your Weird

How many times have you been called weird or have been made fun of/teased?

I’ve been called weird a lot. I’ve also been teased a lot.

This used to bother me more when I was younger. As someone who just wanted to fit in, any time light was shined on a way I was different from the people around me, I changed that aspect. Girls weren’t interested in playing outside? I didn’t talk about it. No one wore South Pole? I stopped wearing it, even though it was my favorite brand. Throughout my childhood/young adolescence, I changed anything about myself that may have been seen as “weird” to those around me.

Sitting here now, I can look back with hindsight. I am an empath, so the emotions of those around me can be overwhelming (and they especially were when I was a kid). My love languages are Words of Affirmations and Acts of Service, so being made fun of or teased was something that really bothered me. Emotions and words are things that I’m sensitive to!

And now, I am weird. I am interested in “weird” things that the majority of people in my life are not interested in (or at least not as much as I am). Astrology, paganism, psychology, moon phases, the magick of nature, spirituality, plays and films, books, so much more. I am grateful to be at the point of not giving a FUCK because I’m learning I don’t need to change myself for anyone.

I am learning to embrace my weirdness.

I’m also grateful for my fiancé, who also embraces my weird. We goof off around with each other, we have conversations about things that aren’t super important but are on our minds, etc. And seeing him, someone who I admire, love me as I am and encourage me to be myself has jumpstarted my own journey to actually learning more about the things that interest me.

But the thing is, I didn’t need him to love me in order for my weird to “be okay”. I have always been okay – my weird has always been okay, I just was so preoccupied for so long to fit in.

And of course, the clichés we’re all familiar with come to mind – “If you feel you don’t fit in, you were born to stand out”. Maybe you’re not comfortable standing out. I’m not! I’d rather be behind-the-scenes of things. But whether I am cast or crew, in the spotlight or backstage – my true self and the things that make me different are still valid. I am still valid and worthy of existing exactly as I am without changing myself to fit the mold of someone else, or of what someone else may want for me.

If this sense of hiding yourself and not embracing your true self is never something that’s affected you – good for you, my dude! (not sarcasm) That’s incredible and I am so happy for you that you have always felt comfortable in your own skin.

But if you feel like you can only be your true self on your own or with a select few people, then I want you to know that I see you. Maybe you came across this and are in high school – and honestly that is the breeding ground for trying to fit in. After graduation, you most likely won’t keep in touch with many people and you’ll see just how much your environment affects your personality and your-wellbeing.

Whatever your situation is – let this be a reminder that you are allowed to be yourself.

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Current Events

Hallow’s Eve/Samhain!

Hello! We have 11 days until Halloween! I know I’m super early, but I’m excited 😁

Normally I don’t really care about Halloween. I’m all for the candy, and Halloween parties are fun because (pre-COVID) it served as a way to get drunk in a costume that for me was some sort of comfortable. But I’ve been very excited for this Halloween in particular.

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If you’ve read any of my other posts, then you’re familiar with me being spiritual. Part of my spiritual journey has led me on the path of learning more about Paganism, witchcraft, and spirituality philosophies.

On the Pagan Wheel of the Year, Samhain is the Pagan tradition that is their “Halloween”, but really I think is more like Day of the Dead. Samhain is a celebration of the harvest and is meant to be a celebration of the harvest with all loved ones, living and those that have passed.

Also, in addition to the reflective time of Samhain, this Halloween in particular is a powerful time energetically speaking. On Saturday, October 31st, Daylight Savings Time ends, so we “fall back” the clocks and gain an hour.
Also, there is a Full Moon on Halloween and it’s a blue moon. Blue moons happen when there are two full moons in one month. Having a blue moon on Halloween is exciting because it doesn’t happen often. The last time this occurred was 1944, and won’t happen again until 2039!

I don’t have much information to share more on Samhain specifically, or on the moon energies. Frankly, there are a lot of other articles online written by people more knowledgeable on both of those subjects.

So why write this then?”

Because I’m excited. I’m excited for the cooler weather. I forget how much I truly love sweaters and autumn until it’s 50° and I’m bundling up in cardigans. I’m excited because this is the first autumn I’m engaged. I’m excited because I’m feeling inspired about my life! That’s amazing y’all, because for awhile there I was feeling pretty lost. I know that Halloween is over a week away, and as of this point I don’t even know if I have plans yet (socially distance, COVID safe plans), but I’m excited.

I hope you all can find something to be excited about this month! 🎃